4 wk had passed! going back to PLC to become 3rd SGT liao lor! call me sgt ng! wahahaha! looking forward to meet my SCS mates. navy is a absolute awesome experience for me. we r the SCT = See Cannot Touch, compared to MP, Shag Cannot Think. Dun need do sai kang one, man do! Final dinner got buffet somemore! since when SAF got buffet de? but we have =D plates of curry chicken wings plus free refill of syrup drinks at our table :) i am so going to miss my SCT life in navy. however after our POP we have to go back changi for On Job Training (OJT), time to be tekan like some dogs :( seems tat the sgts there seems to be in love wif me and they wan to pull me back to be an instructor. pro - 5 days able to book out on weekends. cons - extras are like free only! and fucking far frm my house! if posted to platoon and HOPEFULLY to tuas. pro - slack like some fuck. con - 8 days 7 nights spent in camp. if i am an instructor, good luck to those man :) -EVIL LAUGH-
anyway i am back to single AGAIN and yeap looks like once and for all thing. 3.5ys tgt, we broke and patch 3 times. looks like fate like to play ard with us and this time i guess is really over. i love u, i always do. maybe i am jus not good at expressing myself? yes i am not matured and i grew up in a totally well protected environment. i am a spoilt brat prince. maybe is jus tat our family background is totally opp of each other. sigh. i love u i love u i love u and i am going to lose u once and for all. many pple find tat the reason u gave is utter bullshit but i chose to believe. i always believed whatever u said. is one against the world AGAIN. after some thinking through, no matter wad the reason is, it doesnt matter anymore cox is really over. our r/s had ended with a fullstop.
i love u mum & sis. pls dun wry abt me. i am alright.
sis, i will be strong.
mum, i am growing up, dun wry abt me! since young u have protected me too well and now is time for me to suffer some falls and learn to get back on my feet.
is it a crime to be in a fortunate and blissful environment? is okay i take my own sweet time to get more mature and more stronger!
and fuck! today is my first traffic 'accident'. i didnt step on my brake when i put my car to neutral and my car bumped into a police car infront. I WAS FUCKING SCARED N NERVOUS cox i didnt put my P plate! luckily nth happen! -cold sweat-
anyway i hope my laopa aka shifu will get over soon yeap. like father like son. both our r/s ended but ur son who is me is working hard to get over! so u shld too!!!
u dun believe i would settle down right? ha is okay. i shall get on wif my life whereby i missed out so much. i will be going back to my poly life when is all happening n chaotic. drink drank drunk party all night!
esp thanks to my bmt buddy (kelvin), navy bunk mates and esp my boss (hayden) who are there for me. thanks for the support and encouragement. esp my boss who is an insomnia cb, all thanks to ur insomnia i get to chat to ya all night when everyone is slping.
time to get back to reality, pack up emotions and get ready to move on.
is hard to let go but i will.
u left my heart bleeding
