i really missed alot of stuffs, things have been changing ard me. everything seem so difficult and i cant seem to catch up with any of the changes. i wonder does the prob lies with me or the others. i really dun like it, just seriously dun like it.
somehow i feel distanced frm tkd, dun really feel i belonged there anymore. just dun have the usual feeling of looking forwards training. i missed the hardcore training i used to have. i missed the extra sets i have been doing. i missed the rubber tubes training. i missed the sun trainings. i missed sweating and training hard like a dog. i missed training hard for IVP and when i won my first gold medal. i missed the celebration after each competition when i won my gold medal. i also missed the sunday 'family outing'. oh btw i gt a free upgrade from brown to black tip (Y) sir robin tyvm. pattern training really is tiring shit de lor!
once i hit 18, i starting partying and drinking. i really missed those days. partying was fun, totally exhausting. oh and i partied wif my sis & cousin. FAMILY BONDING (Y) i've got a cool family! drinking was hell crazy, destroying our livers. mambo on wed night and nxt day still went for attachment was totally insane.
since graduation, everyone have been busy with their own life. guys enlisted for army while gals are either busy studying for uni/poly or enter the workforce. each of them are busy with their own stuffs and slowly we are drifting apart. DUN LIKE IT.
only 2 things tat been good since graduation is weekee my long lost bro is back other thing is to enter RWS. working sux due to MALAYSIAN company _l_ fucked up company seriously. but peeps there r way hell crazy (Y) fun pple to work with. bunch of frens to be with.
things have been going bad, worse, worst since the break up. it really caught me off guard and it really brought me nearly to the state of depression. when finally things are going better, it came crashing down again. finally LIKE FINALLY somehow somewhat when everything is coming to an end, it came crashing down again. i really felt very stressed & i felt is me against the whole world. u said i dun understand ur feelings, but i do understand n u r the one tat doesnt understand my feeling. my frens said this and ur frens said tat so who is right? i am not trying to say ur frens r wrong but i somehow feel that they only think of u but not for us. sigh. the feeling of against the whole world really sucks cox there is no one for me to turn to. the stuffs i cant bear to tell u cox i didnt wan to stress or hurt u. is a double stress for me, my dear.
if time can be rewind... i still wan to train hard for my gold. i wan to train just like the others, go for sun trainings then go for 'family outing' tat was really my happy poly days.
i would nvr ever wan a break up cause it was such a stupid decision. my life revolves around u cox u were the best damn thing tat happen to me.
dear, give me a chance to be with you till we get old. i really wan to hold ur hands till end of the world.
hello pple! i am back! korea wasssssssss HMMMMMM... okay lah~ going wif tour is like so standard. will be back for korea wif my gang of AHHHS. 2 yrs ah pls start saving money esp to tat one who loves to buy bag ah (AHEM AHEM
NOT ALICE). i wan to play the theme park la!!! CRIES! nvr play much at all esp everland.
changi airport.
a meal before boarding
reached korea airport
my earliest lunch in my lifetime
9.30am korean time
bbq pork
welcome to everland!
1st attraction brought by tour guide. is juz sitting on a escalator nth much.
2nd attraction brought by tour guide. is a 3-D movie. is in korean wif no subtitles.
would prefer RWS shrek 4-D.
3rd attraction. sitting in this circular thing go along with the water. nth much. boring.
worse than JPR in RWS.
safari ride
oops oops =x
we only had 2hrs left in everland so i didnt sit this ride.
I WAN TO PLAY THIS ROLLER COASTER LAH! :(
I WILL BE BACK!
end of day 1.
start of day 2. APPLE FARM
lunch. pork AGAIN
dairy farm
hehehehe look at the pic below.
HUGE EH? HAHAHAHA
diy ice cream in progress
finished product. we the 1st n only team tat is successful. ZAI LOR!
after tat we went shopping!
some food we ate during shopping. we kanna chop like robert. nahbei!
dinner! ginseng chicken!
end of day 2.
stay tuned!
of my RWS colleagues, kaixin, xiuqi (bodoh), kahmun (buddy), jos (lub), carina (bimbo), this grp of pple is there for me during this darkest n roughest period of my life. even though we knew each other for abt 3mths but the bond is there. thank you my friends.
of my cousin chomel. thanx for making the effort coming down to my house n teach me how to bake a cake despite is ur only free day. i guess there will be more to come! thank you in advanced. WAHAHA!
mum & dad. i am sry for being so unfilial. even though i dislike the strict curfew and sometimes ur naggings, i know it is all for my own good and i am the ONLY son in the family tat is why u r so protective over me. i love u mum & dad.
Of LoJz. Thanx for being there for me. esp mdm n shifu.
Ahfat, thanx for ur super huge chicken drumstick.
Robin, thanx for those words of guidance.
Shifu, thanx for being there. Even though u dun say out, i know u have been totally worried for me esp during the nationals period. i am sry tat i let u down & underperformed. i will be gg for my blackbelt n fight for nationals :) i knew u always wanted me to win a gold for nationals in a blackbelt and i will. even it takes me to win a gold medal at the age of 30, i will. i will do it becox u r my shifu and wad u expect of me.
Mdm, u were always there. Thanx for meeting me and toking to on phone. u nvr once reject my call or the meetings. sry to bother u so much. even during ur tough times u were still there for me. i owed u n shifu so much tat i dunno how to repay both of u. i will nvr, nvr forget LOJz.
of my sis, if u realised i uploaded 2 pics of u! we were only separated by a concrete wall but sometimes we seemed to be so far apart. still u will nvr forget to take care of me, ur little bro. i love u sis. i knew u were always be there for me, even at times we might seem hostile. Thanx.
of u my love. this is one of the ONLY FEW pics we had. i know i started everything n cause so much trouble for u, our frens, our families n third parties. i tried my very best in make up to u by using my utmost sincerity. its kind of too late but is better than nvr tried. i did everything i can in my means, not in my means, wad i am supposed to do and wad i am not supposed to do. i am willingly to do so much so much things for u, and only for u. i hope u like the bday surprise. 12am at ur house. even though is kind of screwed up but well, i still hope it touches ur heart. the cake, the vanguard board, Polaroid camera, ur fav tidbits, the candles and climbing to ur window. i have my heart dug out for u. it is really ur call.
let everything end soon..
