okay crap.. one of the worst thing happened in my life is having my bday falls juz directly 1 day before exams.. is juz so fked up.. crap sia! couldnt study at all cans.. bloody shit.. tmr costing is so going to be a disappointment... hais~

yesterday went to ate at zhou zhuang buffet wif my family members excluding my bro in law. after tat went back to NUS to help carry things to my sis hostel. the hostel is wulu to the max!

okay n my blog is pretty dead filled wif cobwebs n dust.. sry sia cause really like nth much to update.. haha.. anyway thanx to all who wished me! SO HAPPY LA THIS YR! so many pple wish me.. happy happy happy!! loves my dear to the max! L.O.L (lots of love) ty for the bday present. love it alot..

k shall cont to study my costing.. hais.. sad bday sia.. bloody hell..

argh~ 3 more paper.. sians sians sians~ stuck at je library since 10. concidentally met my cousin! end up we both studied till 4pm. i gt study lah but he i dunno -.- he last paper on thurs.. nahbei i am still stuck wif 2 more papers.. GOSH! TIME CAN U FLY FASTER PLS~

nationals bout list is out.. crap! so super nervous.. everytime think of the competition my heart will race like a mad dog~ beat super fast lah! anyway the bout list is kind of messy.. shall wait a more updated bout list by stf. 4 opp.. 2 matches for my gold. let this be my third gold in a row man.. then ngee ann polite jiu 4th gold in a row.. IVP last tourament 5th gold in a row then GRAD~ WOOHOO~ so shiok! anyway my dad ask me go get a blackbelt.. is like so.. -.- omgs~ muz i? really mus i?! i dun wan to fight anymore wor.. ltr kanna brain dead! MY GF WILL BE SO SAD! AHAHAHA~ cannot lah.. but i guess i will be gg for a blackbelt.

i think i haf another hitlist cos SOMEONE (not yishun)say i am scared to go down for training sia.. OMFGS~ i didnt expect anybody to say this kind of words to me man.. SUPER DUPER stunned. 你最好准备吧！

confidence

went to find my uncle @ katong there. selling playboy shirt at some pasam malam. bought a few to show some support though. after tat went to joo chiat to eat black ppper crab. super yummy yummy.. ordered 2 crab $97. fking exp kind of turn off by the price but well it taste... SUPERB YUMMY~ kind of worth it. i think i ate 3/4 of one crab. DAMN! sinful.. anyway 30th aug will be gg Kuishin Bo wif my family. 5th aug will be eating @ long beach again. ALASKA CRAB! damn i think i might miss it sia.. nationals on tat day.. T.T AHHHHH! anyway 2 bouts only.. fight n go eat my dinner! =x tats sounds so bad sia..

had a talk wif my mum.. she say i nvr become mature.. -___- SIANS.. my thinking mature by ABIT only.. -___- SIANSS AGAIN.... but well at least an improvement though.. yea maybe she is right.. somtimes i think too much too far.. planning far is alright but too far seem unrealistic.. uni? i think i still haf a chance to go overseas though! during 2nd yr of NS zai think bah..

damn.. yawns~ my blog is getting boring.. NO WRY MAN~ PARTY SEASON IS COMING!

library
driving
met up wif XZT
ps
sweason but there is too many pple
bought a $5 umbrella frm 7-11
walked to cathay
ate @ astons
prime ribeye medium rare. bloody~ i like!
went ion orchard. SUPER BIG~ omgss like walk 1/4 of it only
back to amk
caught the last house on the left
nt bad! 3.5/5
dinner @ mac
my gf is dumb even more dumb than tay layhuan! OMFGSS~ she thought tat double fillet o fish is 2 fillet fish burger.. -.- GOOD JOB LAH!

tmr gonna start mugging for bs~ not bullshit is building service! good luck for those pple who gg for whompoa tourament! wan to see every team gt a medal back! JIA YOU!!

why am such i jay chou fan? cox i simply love his song n his lyrics as they always fit into parts n parcels of my life.

雨停下的天空
灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这世界上
我晒干了承诺
灰的更加舞动
就算做事做错也只是怕错过
在一起错分开了错
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口在爱过哪儿才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷

被淋湿的天空灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这世界上
我晒干了承诺灰的狠冲动
就算做事做错也只是怕错过
在一起错分开了错
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口
在爱过哪儿才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把歌词听到最后再说再见
你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷

你说我不该不该不该在这时候说了我爱你
要怎么怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
请告诉我而暂停算不算放弃
我只有那一天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把歌词听到最后再说再见
你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷

你说过我不该在这时说爱你
要怎么证明我没有力气
可是暂停却算不算放弃
我说过我不该不该在这时只想爱你
要怎么证明我没有力气
我只有一天回忆

i juz wan u to know after 1 yr, we r back tgt. it isnt easy for me to make tat decision. i consulted so many person n yet still pondering whether is it a right decision. cox i didnt wan to left u again like i did. i dun wan to give u anymore empty promises, dun wan to see ur sad face, dun wan to hear ur cries. all i wan is to see ur smile, hear ur laughter.

tat crush, yeap is heavy. cox she was everything i wanted. pple used to ques me "stop dreaming lah, there isnt a perfect gal" but well i found her. tats y tat was a super heavy infatuation. but she was juz a complete stranger in my life. a gal tat i only knew for 5mins, tok less than 10 sentences. HOW COULD U COMPARE U WIF HER? dun compare urself wif a total stranger in my life pls. she is nth compared to u.

a gal fell in love so deeply. made me more matured n sensible. the ONLY gal tat really let me feel tat i really wan to be wif her till marriage. u shld know i dun believe in teenage love affair cox is still such a long way to being an adult. but u r diff. u r de special one. u r the only gal tat stuck in my heart, my head. u r my everything. the only gal i ever wanted so badly even we r separated for 1 yr.

pls. believe me. i love u gal even though the time frame is short. i dun haf 2 hearts but i haf a flower heart. but u the only one who can occupy it. haf some trust n faith in me. if not i wouldnt haf came back for u.

during this period i haf been single for 1 yr even though attached for 3mths. i force myself to get over u, erase those memories. but obviously tat night u read to me abt the sms i used to send to u. i cried. yes i teared. everything came back. those memories, the stuffs i did for u, the presents i got for u, the stupid stuffs we did tgt, how i waited for u when u r doing PW in ur sch, sent u to tuition, our tiffs n quarrels. everything juz came back to me. i realise i haf been lying to myself for this 1yr plus. i still couldnt get over u. thus everyone is asking me to patch back wif u. but i insisted no. cause i am afraid. i couldnt face u. and.. i dunno how to.

i came back eventually. becox i cannot hide it any longer. remember tat time u was wif eugene @ ms, i was very upset. ended up wif a guy who i told u to stay away frm cox tat time i already know he liked u. when i reach home, i open the photo album u gave me for the vday present. i stared blankly at it, flipping back n forth. i missed u badly gal. but i still have to act tat i am already over u. do u know aching it was? yeap i bet u do. cox u can actually cry when u r having lecture when we broke up at first.

dun ask me y did i ever leave u in the first place. i dunno. but i seriously fking regret it. tats the biggest mistake in my life tat i ever make. 一起长大的约定，我还记得。wad abt u?

we juz gt back tgt not long ago. the feeling is there. is stronger than ever becox i really dun wan to lose u again. losing u is the last thing i haf in mind. pls believe me. my heart only beats for u. i can only see u in my eyes cox the rest r juz invisible to me. my tears remind me tat i still love u. the memories r pure solid evidence tat i am still deeply, madly in love wif u.

believe will u? lew ying tong, i love u. i really do.

to passer by

u brought upon urself. i am insensitive riz? i show u i am one then. :) gd luck.

blog have been moved. wan my link? ask me for it

removed tagboard due to irritating passer bys. hate bitches. hate bastards. hate pple who dunno de whole story yet act until they know everything. wads their business wif me n pl. wads wrong with dem? i seriously dunno. when i am wif her, they all say. break also say. break q few mths liao still say. wtf is wrong wif dem? wadever i do they all say say say. so gd at niam niam go be monk or nun lah! everyday niam niam niam until ur mouth rot lah.

To passer by:

if u haf been noticing y is my blog kind of rusty is cox i CHOOSEN not to blog. i only blog one entry n there u go yanking here n there. if u r her best fren, i think u r kind of disappointing. instead of helping her u r cr8ing more prob for her. bringing up the past she chose to forget. being insensitive? pls think thru when u make this kind of comment, obviously u didnt. if i wouldnt, i would haf blog every single entries. and for fuck sake pls dun compare me n her ex. i dun go fb or friendster add gals n chit chat flirt wif them. when i was wif her, i make sure she gets home safely at night. send her home when our sch ends early. her ex didnt even send her home ONCE. i know sending a gal home is not a great deal but i tried spend as much time wif her as possible as i am quite busy wif my cca. fyi i didnt toy/played wif her feelings. DUN EVER ACCUSE ME FOR TAT. i am fking pissed at this accusation. seriously i dun understand wif u all passer bys. wad happen is btw me n pl. WADS DE BUSINESS WIF U ALL? if she dun wan say juz be it. wad for keep on ask ask ask making her irritated? she doesnt wan to bring up those memories juz let it be. u all kept on asking FOR WAD? mind ur own business lah. too free? go do some charity work then.

so am i suppose to please u as well? not to blog anything abt my life? hey come on lah is my blog. i blog wad i wan. dun like it? DUN COME HERE. i didnt use a gun to force u to come my blog. i am sick of pleasing pple already. haf u tried be4 sandwiching btw pple? I HAD. NOT ONLY 1 OR 2 BUT A DOZEN OF PPLE. fyi dozen = 12. SEE THE NUMBER? yeap try it. u think is ez? i wish it is.

say wadever u wan. juz be like any other pple who judge me. I DUN GIVE A FUCK AT ALL. only a handful of pple know me inside out. i am glad they r always there for me.

Joanna aka Shuang-er : my shuang er! u were there during i was emo, troubled, in need of pple to tok to. wifout u i think i wouldnt have survive my poly yrs esp after i lost contact wif tat guy. he was my elder bro, the one i always consult n hang out wif. but u know things changed. and yeap u somehow took over his position. tats y i so teng u! hahaha :) will always be a phone call away for u 24/7 standby mode!

Juan : my blog maintainer n my nanny! yeap listening to my troubled mind n my life story huh. u can become my secretary or write biography for me liao. everyday also tok to u abt my life. ur daily reminders n scoldings somehow changed my mindset after i watched tat movie. u still gonna keep on remind me yeap! if nt i forget again..

Yongheng: stupid lah u go serve NS. gt gf somemore~ whre got time for me sia! :( havent been updating u.. but when i was wif pl n tat period u was there for me. trained me in tkd also. go play lan tgt. tok cock tgt. missed those time. thanx bro for being there for me.

Alice aka ahrice aka jie : yeap jie know u always scold me is gt reason de. cox i always behave like a kid, ahbeng. tats y i always listened to u! :) ty for toking to pl too.

Layhuan aka ahhuan : SIAO CHAR BOH! u n ahrice was there when i broke up wif yt. tat period was unbearable for me, wifout both of u.. i wont be here wif her again. i took alot of courage of cox wif ur advice n encouragement. thanx alot. ahhuan u r still not consider my jie :P

Duli aka ahtiong: 为了你！我用华语写我的感受！以防你看不懂！我对你不错吧！没想到你还蛮了解我的！老哥！哈哈哈！为我们的'钱'途一起努力吧！

Weeteck aka ahbui : how can i ever miss u out? MY GAY BUDDY. mistaken for being a gay couple not only once but TWICE. LOLS. shared our views abt EVERYTHING. if not for ur scoldings i guess i still be immature heartbreaker jerk. somehow ur scoldings went in. tats y i dun mind u scold me riz? everyday scold me i also guai guai listen de. but seriously can u juz treat me nicer abit?

to you: sry tat i hurt u tat deep. be4 we enter the r/s i told u be4. warned u be4. but wad done cannot be undone. dun blame urself abt the passer bys. is okay, is nt ur fault n i wun blame u for tat. some pple r juz born irritating n i believe u shld know better than i do. pls dun depend on alcohol too much. tc.

to yt: content sent by sms =X

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

alright i haf decided to move my blog to wordpress. got so fking fed up wif those desperate to the max / nvr say die / hardcore suitors. bloody hell.. irritating pests!

out whole day n didnt study AT ALL. surprisely when i reach home @ 11+ mum didnt scold me leh~ haha kind of wierd~

FINALLY CUT MY THICK THICK AMAZON FOREST HAIR. SHORT hair! and now i look like at 16yrs old kid again~ some sec sch kiddy shit! great~ but wad can i do when i haf such a kiddish face? -.- gt used to live wif it liaos lah!

caught public enemies. ending was kind of suck. but johnny.d is cool~ superb cool!

shop.shop.shop. shopping wif a lady is super mafan cans~ all ladies pls dun ask me shop wif u anymore!!! i will only go shop wif AHRICE ONLY!! LOLS! =)

TCC-ed. i realised i TCC at least once a mth.

went to see firework again. bloody fking hell! seriously the whole suntec + marina sq + merlion there is flooded wif pple -.- need find a spot took me at least 1hr! gosh~ super warm outside.. gonna squeese wif many many pple! hate the fking ahnehs~ smelly + retarded + stupid + inconsiderate + ITCHY HANDS! WAN TO KILL THEM ALL! kind of far view cox every1 is kanna block by police. so stood quite a distance frm the fireworks. but well it doesnt really matters cox.................... =x =x =x =x =x now i can finally say singapore gov finally seng mok! this yr firework is so much nicer compared to previous years. love the 2nd part lah! the golden sparks~ very nice :)

hope u enjoy the day. sry for my temper :(

going round in circle. r we back frm where we started?

2day training is sibei tiring de canss.. omgss~ i nearly died of exhaustion.. my toe is swollen badly n couldnt kick at all cans! bloody hell super pain lah! but hor at the least i am surprised tat i juz kick n kick n kick until not pain at all! last part was damn shiok! my double all so zhun siol~ is like so omgss! anyway was super uncomfortable wif my stomach during the whole training..

okay i rejected 2 clubbings outing n 1 pubbing! OMG I AM SO GOOD BOY!! :) :) :) ALL OF U PLS SAY I AM A GOOD BOY PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss ngee ann is so damn random -.- suddenly "oie 2night gg zouk anot?" oh oh mdm xiu yun! promise u lah.. sep go HUAT ah~ i ONS u lah! hahahah.. shit i realise every weekend of my sep is burned. chalet chalet chalet chalet.. hmmmm anyways! CAN WE HAF ANOTHER TKD CHALET? is so damn fun! esp chop robert ah! so shiok~ except for the part tat i stayed in the haunted room -.- BLOODY HELL! NO WONDER TAT ROOM NOBODY TAKE! KNS PUI PUI PUI!!

oh oh i am so gg to buy a liver frm indonesia, malaysia, africa or wadever ctry.. any lobangs? cox i think sep & oct my liver will harden & rot.

loves my family lots lah.. Firstly my mum heartache see i eat cup noodles (cox i dunno how cook instant noodles mah hahaha =x) say y nvr ask her cook for me. EH i dun wan disturb her watch dvd mah I AM SO 孝顺pls! LOLS and then she say my dad can always drive me out buy supper back.. but mafan sia! dun wan lah~ I AM SO 小少爷！hehex.. Secondly I RECEIVED MY SUPER ADVANCED BDAY PRESSIE FRM MY SIS! its an itouch but is free though~ cox my mum bought macbook for my sis! Thirdly i am so gg to extort a bday gift frm my mum! i told her i juz buy ANYTHING ah. she say okay but muz give me a kiss i jitao -__- omgs~ den she change her mind very fast, okokay a hug enuff i still give her -__- face LOL! but anyway LOVESSS HER LAH~ cox well she wanted buy a coach wallet for me but my sis insists say NO! buy for him for wad? he also gg army need branded wallet for wad? wow she is so good job~ BUT NVM! i shall juz use my credit card n just buy! LV/gucci/prada/burberry/coach? HMMMM~ MR GOH WEE TECK? WHEN ARE U FREE TO GO ORCHARD WIF ME + MR TIONG~

k i am off to slp le cox i MUST slp early. early lor! 12.43am! is so early lah! haha

okay bloody hell i am not informed abt the GCA thingy.. CB~ i am so sadddddddddd! anyway i also cant work for it.. cox is like 13-17th aug.. and 18th is my first paper.. if is not during my exam period i am so gg to pon lesson n go for tat job! LOL! hot babes ard the games convention + all of mine colleagues are gals! is like so damn good can?! which job can fight over my job!! DAMN! i am so suay recently :( shit ass freak! i need change my luck man!!!!

alright i shall put an end to my emo-ness~ is bad for health.. really gonna thanx my shuang er for tat!! haf been wif me for these few days.. JUAN JUAN U GO N DIEEEE~ =x jk lah! i know u gt tests and reports..

a whole new beginning?

我不知不觉又徘徊在从前
秋风悄悄的呼唤听来尽是孤单
落叶的期盼片片左右为难
心走寂寞攀跟着飘进黑暗
我不闻不问也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断怎麽摆脱纠缠
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
有你在我身旁
我不闻不问也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断怎麽摆脱纠缠
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
有你在我身旁
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
有你在我身旁

the lyrics said everything..

i couldnt help myself frm chking the phone every sec

early morning my slipper spolit! huat ah~ i cant walk properly.. and good job lah all laugh like shitheads! walking is quite difficult for me already.. when i see stairs i will faint.. -.- simply i throw my slipper down or up the stairs and walk one side bare footed.. kanna squeesed like canned sardines in the bus.. feeling is so fked up.. hate to get squeese in crowded bus.. GOSH! sigh of relief when get off the bus.. hopped across the road.. cool eh..

is a bad day! :(

all sorts of shit r coming to me AGAIN.. well~ slowly.. shall settle it one by one again.. 我不入地狱，谁入地狱！

dunno y am i like this.. sigh~ is it u.. or juz me..

how i wish there is a restart button in my life. press it whenever i regret sth or did sth wrong.. i think i will press millions billions times already.. hahaha.. but well.. tats life.. some go some stays.. wadever.. i am still happy wif my life..

my sis is a terror -.- she juz wack, punched & pinched my nipple 10mins ago.. she nvr bathe jiu step step step step on my mattress.. gd job~ tmr cfm body itchy here n there.. bloody hell.. she is one hell of a dangerous gal.. but still loved her alot.. even though she is guai lan & nvr fails to terrorise my life cox she super dote on me :) :) :)

my mum still dun get it :( even a fking miracle happen tat NUs accept me, i also dun wan to study in NUS.. sigh~ wont be attending tues training anymore.. study study study~ seriously i hope i can grad wif a GPA of 3 at least..

有谁能从我的笑容看到那疑惑的伤感？

有谁能从我的眼神看出那一丝忧愁？

i
really
cant
take
it
any
longer
anymore

my
mind
is
like
a
whirlpool
right
now

went to do land project wif ahtiong. took some pics at upper bukit timah area there. super lame.. cox tat piece of land is like dunno can build wad shit de.. oh man we r so going to crack our brain n think of sth else.

after tat went out wif 一家人. shuang er + 老爸 + 岳父. went westmall slack first be4 gg to a jap buffer dinner @ somerset. gg out wif dem cfm will gain weight de and i think i gain 3kg already. oh and ahfat became a super big target board LOL! cox as a fellow member of jianz he kept secret frm us! how can he do tat! he choose an non member over memberSSS! tsktsk.. and therefore we were shooting him frm mid of dinner till we go home. after dinner we went TCC slack cox aht + ahfat + mdm xiuyun + robin ho gg lunar. I DIDNT GO OKAYSSS! cox is during sch day n furthermore is near exam period! DAMN! :( oh well sep i am so gg to party real hard.. =x =x i am buying a new liver for storage! any1 blood grp is B+? LOL!

AH FAT PLS LOOK AT THIS

I, NG YUZHE HAS ASK A STRANGER'S PHONE NUMBER FOR ONCE ONLY!

believe it or not is up to u all lah.. i really buay tahan liao.. i repeat this for dunno how many million billion times liao..

in a whirlpool

Yu Zhe
19
31/08/90
SPTKD
CCHMS/VJC wushu team

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