this mth of june is a complete disaster.
first i broke up wif my gf. well a torturing 3 weeks heartache and emotional roller coaster. wonder is a blessing in disguise or another regretful decision i haf to suffer for the rest of my life.
secondly i lost my hp :( heartaches to the max! 2nd day of usage i freaking drop it. sent to repair. get back use another 4 or 5 days jiu lost it. KNN! fuck tat thief. singapore dun haf enuff kind souls lor! :( :( :(
thirdly i quarrel wif my 'boyfren' GOH WEE TECK! :( :( oh gosh~ i am turning gay soon! anyway is settled.
fourth, fuck this world cup. totally screwed to the max. crappy shit!
on the other hand.. i met up wif weekee. n well tok abt for the past 1.5 yrs. wed is gonna be a gay night for weekee, teck & moi. DULI CHINA MAN WHERE R U~
oh and i have been drinking for the past 3 sats. first is under classified. second dempsey wif L.O.Jz + 2 ahfat's colleagues. third phuture wif carina n her friend BUT 1 bacardi NIAS. gosh. n i lost my phone tat night. FUCKED UP night. so fking crowded sia. irritating. oh but i saw CID sia~ so cool. suddenly spotlight den all the lights went on come catch a grp of pple. this sat! DUNNO GO WHERE but cfm got drinking. MY LIVERRR~ IS STILL STRONG =D =D
in summary, this month of june is a fucking suay month for me. if i didnt remember wrongly, last yr month of june also fking suay. in other words, month of june is so not my month.
I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side. I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
(Chorus)
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
(Chorus)
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No
life is a torture but i dun haf a choice except live wif it.
我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的世界
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎
today almost died on duty. wa knn ccb! freeze at position for 2hrs straight~ ggfied rehs! omgs! reason of death: exhaustion + asthma. anyway today ALMOST went to dbl o, the story begins like this
wt: eh u know today dbl o open?
me: yesh. why? wan go ah?
wt: u also dun dare
me: steady la! mum nt at home also single liao.
wt: sure anot?
me: fk u! nahbei steady lah!
at 9.55pm wt: eh dun go liao la. v crowded.
KNN ASSHOLE PS! u owe me 1 clubbing outing.
was eating instant noodles for dinner. i tot of u. ur last stay out at my house was after my training. u said u were not hungry cox i werent hungry either. but u gobbled up the instant noodles right away. hahaha.
i love u for who u r. even though i always complained abt u here n there. u still were my perfect gf but in ur eyes, u always tot i dun love u or u r not the one for me.
i love to see ur stupid yet cute expression whenever u make a silly mistake.
i love to see u pouting ur mouth when u r thinking of sth.
i love ur stupidity cox it makes u cute.
i love ur beautiful smile.
i love ur stubbornness in pda-ing even though i hate to the max.
i love u. simply sweet love.
frm now onwards,
i smile is not becox i am happy, is becox i thought of u.
i cry is not becox i am sad, is becox i missed u.
the last emo post. is time to move on for the both of us. whether is there another chance, i leave it all to fate. if fate brought us tgt 2 times, perhaps maybe a 3rd time.
anyway tml is operation: destroy liver. LMAOS!
dzt hearts xzt
today we msged quite alot..
both of us acknowledged tat we still r deeply in love
but..
sigh~
shant mention abt it.
but really?
everything u said, do u really meant it?
cox i am really touched by it.
so worried when last night u called me and u were drunk.
pls
take real good care of urself.
promise me, will ya?
i wonder tonight will i be able to slp wifout the influence of alcohol..
i will..
and i will try..
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢?
i jus didnt know wad to do..
except a break up.
we juz haf too much too much prob..
is it becox we fell in love too deep?
i tot i could manage wifout u.
but it jus less than 20hours and i cmi already.
i was at timbre and i saw the spot.
the first outing we ever been to watch firework.
after tat we walk to raffles place.
tat same spot.
i still remembered u wore a pink tube dress.
u were not only a part of my life but u were already my life.
my life revolves juz ard u and only u.
i took a gamble and risk it all.
i lost everything.
but one thing for sure is our feelings.
it is always there.
even though so much probs stands in btw us, our feelings nvr changed.
life is so contradicting.
so deeply in love yet cant be tgt.
i took a yr and u still stood in my heart.
and i know after this we will nvr have another chance again.
how i wish..
i wish..
we r juz a pair of normal happy couple.
i look at ur clothes in my wardrobe.
i teared.
i miss u.
very much.
i love u deeply.
i cant do wifout u.. but i haf to.
i tot i could manage.
but i failed totally.
my heart shattered for ur first twit.
i tot my heart went dead for ur second twit.
but i realise
i still love u afterall.
deeply.
it wasnt dead at all.
i miss u.
i love u.
but..
i haf to let u go.
love is still a myth after all.
i am seriously at lost.
i dunno wad to do at all.
wondering..
is there anyone can really understand my plight?
is not tat i dun wan to say or explain..
it is becox i cant.
dun ask me why?
i juz cant.
i HATE to be alone but i juz wan to be..
i know it is contradicting..
i wan to withdraw myself from everyone.
i dun wan to face anyone.
i dun wan to talk.
i dun wan to face the prob.
becox i dunno how to solve it.
at lost.
i dunno wad to do at all.
clueless.
love..
is so painful.
but yet so seductive.
lures its prey and torture it before killing it.
i am the prey.
i fell into the trap.
will there be anyone to rescue me?
