this is the last visit to your house cause i had to bring your stuffs over. i chosen this timing cause i thought u were outside and till now i am still not ready to see you. unexpectly when i just finish parking my car, his car with you inside just park directly in front of mine. everything is just so dramatic and i thought it will only happen in Taiwanese idol dramas. Fate or wad? but at least now i know that is all over and being with you is a STRAIGHT NO thing.
Fate brought us together after 4 yrs of separation due to the different choice of sec sch. we were together for 1 yr plus and we broke up. once i saw you at marina sq with ur so-called bf at that time. Fate has dropped the hint that i failed to picked up. we patched after a yr and we broke up again. during the 6 mths when we broke up, Fate has dropped another bigger hint but i again failed to pick up. we patch again and stick for another year before we finally ended like this.
i used to thought that we will be have a happy ending but well it went entirely the opposite when i expected 2 yrs ago when we patched for the first time. today Fate has let me see the truth, that you are not the one OBVIOUSLY.
many people asked me not to pack your stuffs for you because you dun deserve that kind of treatment but i refused to believe them. no matter wad i still will pack the stuffs and send to your house personally. even though the truth hurts so badly but at least i learn something.
i fucking swear that YOU are my first setback of my life. Fate has given me such a good life and till recently i then realised. since young i got everything and what i wanted. basically i am a fucking spoilt prince in the family. the friends that i have is awesomely great - my old pri sch friend; angelia tan, alicia, sec sch wushu brothers, AHHHs family in poly, L.O.Jz in SPTKD, RWS colleagues, my army friends. they are just one hell of an awesome bunch of people cause they can tolerate my nonsensical and weird temper. They are always there for me. Some initiate to call me immediately when i was super down. Some will ask me out for one hell of drinking. Most importantly when i need them, they will be there.
for the past 4 years, the ONLY thing that can affect my mood is only YOU YOU and still YOU. when i fucking screwed up my O lvl, i was sad and disappointed but i get over it quite soon when i enter poly. when i fucking kept on losing in TKD tournaments, i nearly gave up but it wasnt really that sad. when my GPA is so fucked up that i cant get into local uni, i just laugh it off. the only thing that can me cry like some wussy, becoming an emo fuck and got into a depression is you.
i always haven been holding on to those naive promises you said but i never once believed them, cause i know it isnt easy. but i really fallen so madly & deeply in love with you. you used to scold me why couldnt have just a little faith. now i fucking tell you why, take a mirror and take a look at yourself. how much have you changed? you should know yourself better than me. environment really plays a very big part and this is why 10yrs romance with a happy ending is not fucking easy shit.
you messed up my head and broken my heart, looks like this is the karma i get and i have repaid the debt i owed you. i should say a very big thank you to Fate instead, for letting me see through you and kill any single hope left in me.
i always believe anybody can make a choice. there is no such thing that i am left with no choice. i make the choice to believe you and now i am the big silly fool. you always said that you had no choice is because you did not want to make that choice. you tell me you were stressed up between your mum and me. but when i see you today, i know that is entirely bullshit. you fucking lied to me that you love me, you missed me. fuck it, you are just too used to being with me. another thing about you, you just love being the good person and you mind your face and reputation just too much.
but is alright, i am totally cool with it. we are at different phase of life, is the only right that you choose someone who is better than me. not many people will want a wallet from a The Wallet Shop when you can have one from LV or gucci?
i pronounced my heart is dead. Love is still a myth.
you really cut my heart open and tore into pieces.
