yesterday 31 aug! finally walk into big '2' :( OH MAN! but i still look super duper YOUNG :D meet up wif huan first. oops n so ps to mr eric who travel all de way frm malaysia, i be the host nxt time! cut hair, walk ard n update on each other. went home first then back to meet u. this yr bday celebration? aint too great. life really is so not smooth sailing. FML FML FML.
it was really heart aching frm the beginning to the end of meal. juz hope u like the flowers. walk to merlion park. we tok n we cried. is kind of funny to see a couple crying by the riverside. finally understood ur situation. i dun wan influence u or wad but is ur choice. he is indeed a much better choice n wif ur friends supporting. seems at i am on the losing side. i dun blame ur frens cox they juz wan u to be happy.
i juz wan really say a big sry to u n ur frens. i really dunno wad to do now. i crack my head for the whole day n i could come out wif only one solution. the solution is to walk away frm u.
sry for not being mature n sensible enuff to u. sry for neglecting u when u need me so much. i really shldnt haf let u go. i am a fking stupid moron who wasted 3yrs not realising how impt you are. sry to make u scared of me so much till now u dun even know whether to trust me anot. i am a piece of shit totally. vows & promises i made r useless cox this 2 mths is juz too short compared to rest of our lives. but i believe i can do it becox i am willing n i wan to do it. trust... is so hard. i know.
it might be last night view wif u. last time holding ur eyes. last time wiping ur tears. last time giving u a super tight hug. last time giving u a goodbye kiss. i dunno wad will the outcome be. but it jus killing me.
i owed u too much, jus too much. if tat is the only way to repay u, let u feel better, i do it cox tats wad i owed u.
remember years ago
someone told me i should take caution
when it comes to love
my illusion my mistake
i was careless i forgot
lyrics from Impossible by Shontelle
oh great emoing again. fked up.
anyway meet up wif joanna aka shuang er. ate at skinny pizza n we conclude tat it is not due to our liking. walk ard n we went for dessert @ MOF! =D NICE HOR THE MANGO :) we shld bring laopa come eat the dessert buffet! YUMMY YUMMY SINFUL TTM BUT WE LIKE~ :D
after tat met up wif da jie aka aijia! man man every 6 mths it is a must to meet up. wong kah tai u bloody asshole meet up soon before i enlist along wif aijia. ate high tea at bao jing tian, their food sux, services sux too and waiting is bloody hell long. went shopping again! got a top frm topman cox aijia insisted on buying sth for me -.- thanx man but really dun do tat again! so damn paiseh to keep accepting present frm u! BUT I STILL WAN MY ARMANI BELT =X
today is teachers day! mr ang heng teck aka shifu aka laopa, thank you so much, for everything. frm poly yr 1 to now, u r still putting efforting in training me despite me not reaching ur standard. thank you for not giving up on me when i didnt achieve anything in tournaments. asides frm training, u brought me out play & haf fun LAST BUT NOT LEAST DRINKING N DESTROYING MY LIVER, i still love u! :) thank you for everything. i know this period of time i been not myself. sry to made u worry over me and really sry if i ever missed training becox of personal issue. i know u haf been dead wry abt my performance for this nationals, dun wry k? i do u proud! becox i am not juz aiming for a gold but i am aiming for another 21-0. mr ang, i will do u proud :) no guarantee but i will try KO my opp. TRY la hor.
dunno wad happened to me today but i am all back to emo mood. gosh. someone kill me pls. i really am at lost. fuck my life la. nahbei cb i wan rot to death! ARGH! when i am getting better, i suddenly juz lose it. TOTALLY. i dunno why but when i am at alone at mrt, it jus came out like tat. fuck fuck fuck fuck! curse n swear X 999
cross heart. double cross heart. triple cross heart. i really really really love u.
