alright end of nationals and i did as promised - to bring back another gold medal. this is my 5th gold in a row and sadly to say my last brown belt competition :( shall advance to black already since so many pple r pressurizing me! ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! on my way~ black belt competition certainly will be a total new challenge for me. gonna pump 202% more effort for trainings.
big thank you for those who came down n support me. YOU, jo, my parents, L.O.Jz. most imptly my shifu. thanx for everything. i will move on to black belt de, no wry! LOOKS LIKE I WILL NEED A BLACK BELT SOON HUH?! hmmmms...
but well some sad thing to say, i underperformed :( BY ALOT. some piece of crap performance out there :( merely scoring 4points for my first match and 6points for my second match. totally disappointed wif my performance. sigh. anyway grats on SP winning overall male champ for the 2nd time! way to go! SP SA!
after tat dinner at some wulu place after tat we went to yishun dam to chu chu feng, nxt stop is some mac at yishun for a mini supper.
did some random thoughts during this period of time. i really sacrificed alot and i seriously meant alot for tkd. all these medals, are they really worth it? i dunno y but this last medal i dun seem happy at all. jus not the same feeling anymore for this past 2 yrs. all i know right now is i won so many medals but they couldnt satisfy me. becox i only wan to win u back.
i dunno how to convince u tat i not the same anymore and i dun expect our r/s to be the same anymore. if rather u would give up both guys, i would rather leave u n let u be with him. at least i know u r in a hand of a decent guy. love is selfish and of cox i really wan u back. pple change and u have changed i guess? before u enter uni i told u lots of stuffs and u promised u wont be like tat, but in the end? i was right. if u really think fun is more impt than being madly in love or shld i say enjoying the one and only uni life is more impt, i will go.
