went for a jog to sort my thinking out..
firstly my injuries are still nt yet fully recovered :( i seriously hope my injuries will fully recover before IVP! i wan my 4th gold medal in a row~ my ankles are quite bad, both ankles. my right knee seem weak too :(
secondly today uni application is open. i guess i am the only loser who doesnt knows anything abt it until jo told me~ till now she is still acting like my secretary! hahaha. so dun feel like applying cox i can already foresee the result - rejected. everyone is asking me to give it a try except tat fker mr goh wee teck. but well actually i gt the same thinking as him. like wad he say 要有自知自明 yea truely. and application fee is like 10bucks! throwing 10bucks down to the drain lehs! the only way i can enter NUS is like thru this DISCRETIONARY ADMISSION and i believed ahbui has a higher chance than me cox he is in TEAM SINGAPORE whereas i am in TEAM SINGAPORE POLY. (notice there is an extra word) i seriously think tat this discretionary admission is bullshit put shuang only cox i nvr really heard from other pple entering the uni via discretionary admission. and i simply see the word 'discretionary' damn bu shuang.
thirdly i blame myself for my low GPA. do i really wan to go to uni? my ans is no. i juz simply HATE studying.. why do i still wan to get into uni den? all cox of my mum.. or shall is juz for my own future? does tat stupid degree paper worth tat much? i juz hate this world for judging everything on the appearance. this world is juz fking materialistic, hate it to the max. study hard = bright future? is this really 100% true?
HAISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS~
