attended my father side - cousin wedding dinner. she thought tat i am my sis bf =.= once again for like dunno how many times~ after tat went phuture wif my sis n cousin + his fren. KIDS~ LOLS! i felt so old when i was wif them -.- gosh~ boring sat night
cont to dun believe in me
cont to dun haf faith in me
cont to choose to listen to other pple
cont to not trusting me
keep on doing that, becox if ur speciality is to tired me out, u r doing a really great job.
it hurts
for everything tat i haf done and sacrificed but yet still.. i am juz another normal bf to u. despite planning surprises for u now n there, sparing a thought for u, taking care of ur family, solving ur family probs. doesnt any of tat goes thru ur brain?
for tat person n his words weigh so much heavier than my love to u. my words seems like a gust of wind huh? in n out of ears? i see. ask urself, since ever when u believed in my advice? ZERO. but yet everything wad i said became the reality and there u go saying 'i will believe nxt time wadever u said' again n again.
many pple judge me by cover and they r so fking wrong. yet u being so close to me but u choose to believe them. i am so disappointed in u. so i guess those other pple understand me better than i understand myself huh? fuck u all who thinks tat u know me very well.
shld haf known it better huh? yea tats my line instead of urs. i knew sooner or later i will be facing this. for every prob i haf been thinking, one by one it came true. for fk did i choose this route? to enjoy the suffering? i aint tat saddist. wads the reason then? beat the shit out of me, i dunno. i love u? yea maybe. for everthing i haf done seem so unworthy of ur trust & faith.
if u cont to choose to believe in other pple instead of ur bf. since ur friends dislike me to the max. lets juz say goodbye. i dun wan u to get caught in btw of us. maybe u can enjoy ur singlehood wif tonnes of guys q-ing up outside ur house. u can enjoy hanging out wif tat special fren of urs. enjoy hanging out wif any guys out there. giving them false hope even though u knew they were not ur type. cox u r juz opening urself out for options.
bye. this blog is dead. when will my blog be alive again?? i dunno.
love is still a myth.
