faith.. how much does it worth? apparently nth.. crap~ how many more mistakes muz i cont to make in my life.. sick n tired of it~ firstly was tat break up. secondly maybe is to patch up. i seriously dun hope tat thirdly is another break up cox of some stupid reason.
flirt, player, playboy.. i tot u knew me but.. i guess i am wrong. sigh. u were juz the same as the outsiders. only my closest fren know me de best? i guess so.
everybody says i am a lousy bf. maybe i am. cox everyone only see the times when u r sad or wadever negative emotions. so muz i blog out every single little things tat i do for u? to let the whole world know? for e.g. 2yrs back when u still in jc, i kept waiting for u every week cox u gt ur pw/tutorials/project. one of the most classic example is tat i pack my dinner, bought 1.5l of ice lemon tea waited for u under HDB block for 2.5hrs. pay for ur expenses when we r on date which i dun haf to. when u r having fever, bought herbal tea & small memo which says i miss u n deliver to ur house right after my lesson. accompany u back home for tat 15mins walk for our meetings everytime cox of ur strict mum. make sure u get ur little gifts for tat specific date of tat mth.
to me in a r/s is juz 2 person matter, muz i really tell the whole world abt it? juz dun like to attract so much attention.. DUN LIKE.
when i am single.. i wan find a gf... when attached wan back to be single again.. 人就是这样！GREED. tats bad.. so bad.. only tend to cherish when one loses sth.
was eating dinner n watching tv.. was hoping u come down juz sit beside me.. although we aint toking yet.. having ur existence by my side is enuff.. more than enuff.. first time u came down n ask me 2 stupid chi words and den u went up. i was shock n disappointed. u came down again for like 1 min and u went up again.. my mind went blank, my heart sank. dunno wad am i suppose to do again..
holding on wif tat little faith~
