i juz wan u to know after 1 yr, we r back tgt. it isnt easy for me to make tat decision. i consulted so many person n yet still pondering whether is it a right decision. cox i didnt wan to left u again like i did. i dun wan to give u anymore empty promises, dun wan to see ur sad face, dun wan to hear ur cries. all i wan is to see ur smile, hear ur laughter.
tat crush, yeap is heavy. cox she was everything i wanted. pple used to ques me "stop dreaming lah, there isnt a perfect gal" but well i found her. tats y tat was a super heavy infatuation. but she was juz a complete stranger in my life. a gal tat i only knew for 5mins, tok less than 10 sentences. HOW COULD U COMPARE U WIF HER? dun compare urself wif a total stranger in my life pls. she is nth compared to u.
a gal fell in love so deeply. made me more matured n sensible. the ONLY gal tat really let me feel tat i really wan to be wif her till marriage. u shld know i dun believe in teenage love affair cox is still such a long way to being an adult. but u r diff. u r de special one. u r the only gal tat stuck in my heart, my head. u r my everything. the only gal i ever wanted so badly even we r separated for 1 yr.
pls. believe me. i love u gal even though the time frame is short. i dun haf 2 hearts but i haf a flower heart. but u the only one who can occupy it. haf some trust n faith in me. if not i wouldnt haf came back for u.
during this period i haf been single for 1 yr even though attached for 3mths. i force myself to get over u, erase those memories. but obviously tat night u read to me abt the sms i used to send to u. i cried. yes i teared. everything came back. those memories, the stuffs i did for u, the presents i got for u, the stupid stuffs we did tgt, how i waited for u when u r doing PW in ur sch, sent u to tuition, our tiffs n quarrels. everything juz came back to me. i realise i haf been lying to myself for this 1yr plus. i still couldnt get over u. thus everyone is asking me to patch back wif u. but i insisted no. cause i am afraid. i couldnt face u. and.. i dunno how to.
i came back eventually. becox i cannot hide it any longer. remember tat time u was wif eugene @ ms, i was very upset. ended up wif a guy who i told u to stay away frm cox tat time i already know he liked u. when i reach home, i open the photo album u gave me for the vday present. i stared blankly at it, flipping back n forth. i missed u badly gal. but i still have to act tat i am already over u. do u know aching it was? yeap i bet u do. cox u can actually cry when u r having lecture when we broke up at first.
dun ask me y did i ever leave u in the first place. i dunno. but i seriously fking regret it. tats the biggest mistake in my life tat i ever make. 一起长大的约定，我还记得。wad abt u?
we juz gt back tgt not long ago. the feeling is there. is stronger than ever becox i really dun wan to lose u again. losing u is the last thing i haf in mind. pls believe me. my heart only beats for u. i can only see u in my eyes cox the rest r juz invisible to me. my tears remind me tat i still love u. the memories r pure solid evidence tat i am still deeply, madly in love wif u.
believe will u? lew ying tong, i love u. i really do.
