sad
devasted
sorrow
bitter
bereaved
cheerless
dejected
despairing
glum
gloomy
grieved
weeping
HEARTBROKEN
HEARTSICK
HEAVYHEARTED
HURTING
my god.. do wadever it takes.. burn me. stab me. punch me. kick me. drown me. starve me. suffocate me. shoot me. juz bloody kill me! argh~ its juz so... torturing..
argh and my back is getting worse.. out of sudden sharp pain will occur.. damn it.. so is a sign tat i stop training asap? cherish this last competitive year..
i resist the temptation of alcohol. so proud of myself! 2weeks wifout touching it liao. open the fridge juz now n saw the LAST bottle of beer. but well thought a while.. better dun drink cox aint the mood to drink yet.. abstain frm alcohol! say NO to alcohol!

