2day nvr go training.. cox seriously no mood.. went sentosa eat seafood wif shifu n mdm xiuyun. shifu treat wor!!! ate dinner at home so didnt eat much there. haf an onion soup and seafood platter share wif shifu.. the lobster sux -.- i prefer sabah's lobster.. the prawn as big as sabah 1 sia! nt bad.. but sabah still better.. after tat went to pick up ahfat den go fabulous. didnt drink much. only finished 1/4 of martell.. well.. i learn another new tatic frm shifu.. EVIL HIM!
=X tmr gg drinking again.. omg~ i tot i say i haf to stop drinking.... HAHAHA~ well.. ermm.. aiya~ due to unforeseeable circumstances... well~ =X
hahaha so glad my seniors teng me so much.. is okay lah dun need wry me.. i not emoing.. i am juz.. being the other side of me.. the quiet side of me.. it doesnt surface much so maybe u all r juz not used to it.. is okay i am alright.. 天塌下来我都能顶！还怕什么? okay de... give me some time? a couple of weeks shld be alright de.. if serious jiu a couple of months lor~
i am juz.. tired.. need to take down the smile for awhile.. i PROMISE tat my smile will be back soon k? for these moments juz let me stone..
i know i am selfish.. sry abt tat.. each pple perspective is diff so pls dun doubt my choice cox i think is worth it. seriously for now i think we r still young. my thinking is tat a r/s nowadays wont last tat long till marriage so i choose medal. i juz wan achieve sth when i am young while i still haf the passion n strength. to be frank we shouldnt even start but yet we gave a try. i shouldnt even show so much care to u when u r sad n troubled over ur ex. i shouldnt even contact u frm the start. but well time could not be reverse so i haf to bear the shit. i dig the hole n i shall take tat it as my grave. this mistake shall be my last n final. pple say 1st mistake take it n absorb. 2nd time same mistake, pple say cant u be smarter n u better fking dun repeat. 3rd time pple will say u fking brainless shit last chance is to be given. so last chane haf been used up. label, judge, give me wadever awful names u all can think of - womanising piece of shit, jerk, bastard, flirt, playboy, heart breaker. seriously i dun give a damn at all, say wadever u all wan, scold wadever u all wan, label wadever u all wad, say wadever u all wan. i can only say tat u all dunno me at all. wads love? to me is an undefined word, is not owning tat person. is jus pure sweet simple feeling towards someone. a smile frm tat person will brighten ur day. a simple gentle touch will makes ur heart race. a simple msg will make u smile to urself, tat person will occupy ur mind regardless of wad u r doing. so wad if u cant haf tat person, it doesnt matters. wad matters is the person is happy, even when they r attached to other pple but u. tats my perspective of love, maybe is diff frm u pple. tats no definite ans of yes n no, it all depends on each person thinking. so pple be4 saying anything pls use tat fking thing in ur head first. if u wan pick a quarrel wif me, 24/7 welcome. for now.. not in mood yet.. i wan some time for myself..
guilt. i need a time machine
